Monday, December 24, 2007!
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HAPI XMAS TO EVERYONE . i noe is abit too early to sae . but well , since i m at hm , i shall blog lors .
received alot of xmas msg . thanks those who sent it to mi . i didnt noe ppl still rem tt i exist ;) tis yr is a veri pathetic yr for mi . especially during my bday n xmas . . . almost all occassions bahs . or mabi shuld i sae is after i broke off wif my ex , den i kidda felt so loner , so lonely . hais . during last yr tis time , i m outside wif my ex , celebrating xmas eve . n we spent e whole nite tgt . it such a nice moment but yet tis yr , i m spending it alone at hm . in a veri empty hse wif onli my mum n i .
i bought back chilli crab n shared it wif my mum for dinner tonite . it haf been so long since i last ate . e feeling is like . . . well , im missing my ex . e last time i ate is wif my bf n mum . or shuld i sae i stil miss him ? or i m onli missing him becos i m lonely ? haiss . i reali duno . but i guess it jus a mixed feeling bahs . tonite , few of my frens asked mi out for party . eugene ask mi go pub wif his classmates , heng leong ask mi go pub wif his frens , shirley ask mi go geylang wif his hubby n frens . hais . but i whr oso dun wan go . i feel like mitting tt someone but he is nt free for mi . he has his own activities ler . sians !
it haf been a mth since i last contact wif ben . i guess he is doing fine wif his stuff le bahs . time reali will heal ( well , mabi for some stuff ) i no longer miss him or yearn for his msg . it haf been a wks or so since ken contact wif mi . haa . i think he found a new young gal who is willing to listen to wadever he sae bahs . i no longer wan him to care for mi anymore . i haf been tinking alot for e past few days . i knew all tis decision i made , i wil nv regret . becos it is for my own good . thanks for those who advice mi wif wad to do . if nt i guess i m stil stuck inside e hole .
i haben been gng out late at nite ler . cos ken is no longer available for mi . sometime will chat on fone wif my frens . but it like once a while . hais . i mis all my frens . but i dun haf time for dem . ytd nite mit up wif brendan aka durian . he waited for mi downstairs for 45mins sia . at first wanna go watch a movie but wen we get there , dun haf movie tt i m keen to watch . in e end , i request to go fetch shirley n den go newton for supper . n he was ok wif it . thanks pal . after tt , he fetch shirley hm n he fetch mi hm as he nid to go his frens hse to play . it was a great nite .
hais . i will stop here ler . dun feel like blogging ler . felt so lonely , so down . everyone is outside wif their loves one , or their frens celebrating xmas , waitin for countdown n having fun . where i m at hm using my com ... take care .
11:08 PM♥
Two Hearts Beat As One
